Sometimes I just don't get it.

I was recently asked a question by someone in my life which really sent my reeling. The question was a personal question, then after the person asked me the question they did everything they could to retract it. That old song by Harold Melvin and the Blue Notes always come to mind,

If you don't know me by now.

After dealing with a person for a number of years I think you should know what their reaction is to questions. You should expect a verbal beat down especially when asking questions that are judging a person's character.

You know I pride myself on being a honest, moral, and loving person. I try to live right and I believe in God. I mean once you put the question out there don't try to take it back. Stand behind your question, but also be willing to accept the outrageous response I will give you for asking such a silly, ridiculous question in the first place. Hey don't you know me by now.

Disclaimer

I have kept a diary/journal all of my life. In fact, I have a journal that I am writing in currently. I like to write my thoughts, my feelings and about the things that are a blessing to me. So writing a blog is right down my alley. I love to write. It just gives me a chance to reflect on how I see the world. Now on occasion I might mention a conversation that made me think or discuss something that I just couldn't get off my mind. I will write about what's going on in the world if something touches my heart or hits close to home. I will write about my friends and family because they are the closest things to me. One of the first rules of writing is write what you know. Now, if your name or a situation that you were in comes up in one of my blogs don't get angry or upset because I am just reflecting. I am writing about how you or that situation made me think. I am writing about what I would do or should do if I were in that situation. It's really not about you. It's all about me. This doesn't mean you can't talk to me because you I might write about it. You can talk to me and yeah, I'm probably going to write about it, especially, if it makes me want to reflect about my own life. It is not my intent to hurt your feelings, make you feel bad or to even gossip about you. Once again it is all about me and how I see the world.

Now if you are reading this and you still think she must be talking about me all I have to say is this "You're so vain I bet you think this song is about you, don't you, don't you? So please don't take it personally, cause I'm up here just to have a good time.

Maybe there is a reason

Recently a friend describe a date she went on with her new guy which was totally out of character for her. I was confused as to why she would do something she hated just to please the new guy. Then it hit me, this is probably why I don't have or will keep a man because I just can't for the life of me do something that I don't like to do. I was watching The Oprah Winfrey Show recently and Steve Harvey was on promoting his new book. A woman asked him a question as to why a guy didn't call her back after they had what she thought was a great day. During the the date the guy ran into the ocean with his clothes on and the girl didn't. Steve said something that was so simple that I couldn't even believe it. Maybe he wanted a girl who would jump in the ocean with her clothes on. I mean that was genius. All these years when I refuse to go camping, fishing or sit in the hot sun; the guy was looking for someone to do all those things. I am wondering if I need to revamp my whole system. Maybe I could sleep in a tent for the guy or maybe I could spend an afternoon in the park in the middle of August or maybe I could sit in a boat or on a pier and pretend that I loved to fish right along with him. Maybe not, but maybe that's the reason I'm still by myself.

A Mad, Mad World.

You'll I can't believe that Cesar Laurean is coming back to town finally. I know I said it like it was a friendly visit from a friend. I'm just happy that the Mexican courts decided to allow him to be extradited back to this country. I think about this crazy man, who killed a woman, burned her and then buried her in his back yard. What would drive someone to such desperation? The thought of fathering a child by a woman who wasn't his wife made him kill that poor woman. I don't think so, personally I think we need to look to the wife as well. I hope he gets a sentence that is befitting the crime. I hope he doesn't get a slap on the wrist or weaseled out of a tough sentence because of some loop hole.
The world has gone crazy. There are so many things going on. Every day something more bazaar than the day before. Sunday school teachers killing little girls, pirates on the sea, people getting angry, shooting up nursing homes and killing police. It's a scary place. All I can say is pray, everyone needs to pray.

What's Love got to do with it?

After spending Easter Sunday with my friend Cindy, her parents and her "boyfriend," I have begun to wonder if I have ever been loved by a man. Sure, I have had men who have said they loved me, but I really don't think they did. They told me they loved me so that they could get in my pants. I don't think I have ever been looked at with eyes of love. No this isn't envy talking it is just me noticing something about my life. How this be? What could have transpired in my life that I would never experienced that feeling? Yes, I have loved. I have been head over heels in love, more times than I care to count. The older I get, the more I desire being loved. Is this wrong? All my life I have heard there is someone out there for you, it is a part of God's plan. I feel that he is there. Is he someone I've known for a while or some new? Is he the man who is currently saying he loves me? I guess we will see.

My View

This blog is just a look at the world through my eyes. Why should anyone be interested in how I view the world. Who am I and what do I have to say. Well, I am a little opinionated at times. I have all of these thoughts that are going through my mind about what is happening in the world around us. I just decided to share my views. So stay tuned, because it is time for me to shine.